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About Carmella

Some call it simplicity; they call it life. Former interior designer Carmella Rayone pens an assorted narrative on living with less in their 665 square foot home in the foothills of Wyoming’s mountains at assortmentblog.com.

There are those feelings. The ones that make you sigh deep and press your eyelids tightly shut, to maybe shut out the knowing that you’ve come up zeros again.

And goodness gracious, how much you’ve tried. Tried to put legs on that vision that’s vague and veiled. Tried to put features on it, to add color to it, to put words to it, to create it.

You’ve tried to make hope become. That house. That job. That title. That bank account. That child. That.

But instead, nothing.

Instead, all you have is what you have, ragged and insufficient, it seems. Zeros, nearly.

How could this be right? It doesn’t seem that when there’s hope and vision and, yes, even need, that it should take so dang long.

You glance up hesitantly, and see your dusty road stretching endlessly ahead, barren of even a road sign.

Wait.

That’s all now.

That’s all you can do.

Wait. There, on that barren road, with what you have, ragged and insufficient as it seems.

And all the beautiful people will go whizzing by on their fancy fast-moving rides, the wind billowing their hair, the sunset on their horizon.

And you must wait.

May I just say something, friend?

Be willing there, for the wait. Hold that pause. Hold it.

Lay the vision there. The hope and the dream? Lay them there. The ragged and insufficient, too.

For in your willingness to wait, you are relieved of being the master, becoming a simple steward instead–a merciful exchange if ever there was one.

And there, covered by the brooding pause, the vision ripens and matures, becoming intricate, whole, and complete.

And in that expectant moment, when grace meets your open hands, you’ll see the vision in full light, all this time having been nurtured by progress unseen.

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  1. Yes. I just wrote something very similar on my own blog today about waiting but still celebrating: http://ssmast.blogspot.com/2014/06/lets-be-equal-opportunity-celebrators.html

    Sarah M

  2. I have woken up every. single. morning. and gone to bed every. night. for 4 years with these words running through my mind. This is exactly where I am at in life. Thank-you for articulating what I am going through. I am learning to lay down the vision God has given me and us as a family and to LET IT GO… I hope He brings you what your heart desires.

  3. This truly speaks to my soul! I dropped by through Kyla Roma’s podcast roundup and landed on this – couldn’t have been a better time for me to read this….Thank you for writing and putting this out there :) I am sitting here with open hands waiting for grace and love to meet me….

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    Elizabeth says:

    This post met me right where I am.
    I am going to print this,
    and leave it on the doorstep of a friend
    who needs to hear these words today.

  5. Beautiful. Every single word resonated. Thank you.

  6. Loved this. Especially, “For in your willingness to wait, you are relieved of being the master, becoming a simple steward instead–a merciful exchange if ever there was one.” So often I forget that I have been relieved of being the master. He is the Master! What relief! What tight grip I hold on things I can’t control!

  7. Wow, hard hard things! Yes, I am there in the waiting. Somethings feel like the forever wait. Maybe there are done and should be forgotten.

  8. How I could have used this realization when I was on the grips of infertility! Now I have other “waits,” which are always do DOING. Not doing something to take away the “wait”, because I am not the master, but to occupy the mind, which likes to worry if it waits undistracted.

  9. Ugh iPhone mistakes! Sorry!

  10. What a beautiful and timely post. I am sincerely grateful for it.

  11. yes, a simple steward. truly a merciful exchange.
    i’m glad not to be in a waiting place alone.
    hallelujah.

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    Virginia says:

    I read this aloud to my husband & we laughed & cried from hearing our lives described. It’s been a long wait. Thanks for words of hope.

  13. Beautifully said.

  14. Thank you Carmella. I needed this message at this moment (and surprisingly did not see it yesterday). Hmm. Providential timing I presume.

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    Melissa says:

    Thank you…

  16. Very well written. Your use of language and ability to paint such a vivid real picture is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

  17. I’m trying to be content while waiting,but it is so darned hard! I know I used to be better at it but our society has gotten into such a “now” state of mind. We need it now, or yesterday. I will have to keep practicing at being comfortable in the uncomfortable state of waiting.

  18. Oh my! This hit me hard tonight. It’s exactly where I am. Thank you for it!

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